What is this now? I've not been doing well lately, both physically and psychologically. And there were a lot of triggers around me, some of which I'm aware of, others maybe not. I'm depressed, having weird dreams, cannot sleep normal hours, and I think I was feeling close to a panic attack a few times. I feel a lot of rage when on my own. Been also for some reason thinking about my abuse, or rather the parts I remember of it, and not sure I want to deal with it at all. But when I go out, I mostly feel like daydreaming. Literally like sleepwalking. I catch myself sometimes thinking I must look ridiculous. Buying things at a supermarket and not really being there, so that collecting the stuff takes too long - or so it feels. Maybe that's what it feels when you are on drugs, I'm not sure because I never took any. I feel like walking the streets while being asleep. Of course I still get things done, so I really am awake, just in a different level of consciousness. I understand I'm doing that to be able to function at all. How do I make sure this doesn't get out of hand?Well I will probably manage, like I did before, but it feels weird just because I caught myself doing it, and I noticed people noticing.