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Old Mar 05, 2017, 09:54 PM
Amebix Amebix is offline
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Thanks for responding and keeping a very open mind to this rather odd situation.
Yeah, I agree that blocking her on facebook was a total **** move and because I DO care about her with all of my heart and do not want hurt her anymore than i've already have, I've decided to text her and ask her if she would like to come over this friday and chill for the weekend so we can talk. I am completely free from Friday up until tuesday afternoon and I have a feeling this will be an emotional taxing ride and these few days I have free will be great if I need them to recover.

I am going to tell her EVERYTHING, why on earth did I ever think it was a good idea to pretty much make her feel like she's alone in this? From what I can gather with the little interaction we have had since that night. she is doing this alone and she feels like SHE is the one who ruined everything and that I am disgusted with her, which my actions (or lack there of) is making her think otherwise...and she has every right to think that.
The thing about giving in is this: Yes, the lust factor is at the max, but so is my emotional longing. It's like....when we are in each others arms with our faces buried into each others necks and our chest's are resting in with each others, I feel her heartbeat and it makes me feel like I just want her and her heart to be a complete part of me and vise versa. So its beyond lust. Also I have had my share of partners in the past (a number that I am not proud of, live in a collage town, was in a band, fit the "bad boy" mold etc etc) so it's not like I do not have experience in love/lust or sex. ANother thing is if what I feel is 100% real, that this closeness and this love that is borderline obsessive is genuine? Or what if it's just GSA syndrome(regardless, from what I've read it feels the same, if not WAY MORE stronger than just falling in love and it does not fade away over time) and I act out and give in, would that not be unhealthy? She is all I think about...
Regardless, first thinks first...I am going to tell her how I feel at least....she should not suffer because I am being a coward, she would never do this to me and I should respect that.

Thanks everyone! I will keep posting and give updates till EVERYTHING gets resolved...

which me(us?) luck!
Hugs from:
Marylin, Skeezyks
Thanks for this!
Archer40