Thanks for all the hugs on my last post everyone! It really means a lot to me.

Today I am overwhelmed. Agitation is really bad and I am having bouts of rage. I was already in a episode of sorts, maybe mildly mixed, before my ex-husband broke my heart, again. This morning I went for a swim. It helped a bit. Now I have to study then go to university for a 3 hour class. Somehow I will get through it but I am worried I am slipping. I can deal with the heartbreak but the agitation, racing thoughts, paranoia and rage are difficult. Abilify helps thankfully. Yesterday I screwed up my Clonazepam taper and had 3mg instead of the 0.75mg I was on. I needed to do so to get through work and I couldn't call in sick as I did last week.

On Wed I see my T and Thursday I see my new pdoc. Hopefully they will be able to help me stay on my feet. I want to run and hide but I can't even lay on the couch for longer than a few minutes due to restlessness. It is like being eaten alive. Sigh...