I can't stop thinking about how alone I feel. I don't want to be alive anymore but I also don't want to disappoint the people in my life. I don't want anyone to think that they could have done something to help. I have felt this way for too long for anyone to fix me. I am broken and I am helpless. I am a lost cause. Obviously I want things to be different but I can't change. Nothing will change. I don't even know why I am writing this. I guess I just want to tell someone how I feel without actually having to verbally say it. I feel pointless and I feel like all I do is fail. I wish I could be better.