Sounds like a really rough time! I think it's a good idea to try and nut out the depressive side of what you're experiencing and everything you've said doesn't sound like overreacting at all! I get that envious feeling towards others, who essentially, are probably worse off than myself, but they also appear to have something that we don't, being a place with full time care, a place to work on our own mental health issues without the added stress of the outside world..

It is damn hard to stay above it all, but somehow, we keep on anyway... I really hope the upcoming appoints are of some help to you!