And you do realize that therapists are being paid to keep their own stuff out of therapy? That's their ****ing job. If anytime somebody screws up, they pull the "oh I'm just a human being" excuse, then nobody is responsible for anything anymore. OP, I'm sorry your therapist was being completely unprofessional. If it was so hard for her, she just should have cancelled. Like you say, you now have to pay for sessions to "repair" this relationship. Hugs.