I have to cut my strawberries slowly so they can't hear me hit the knife to the plate. If I cut them too loud my father will come running to tell me not to cut things on plates because it will leave a knife mark on the plate. If I drop something on the floor I immediately feel a sense of doom that they are coming to yell at me. I make to do lists and if I am going somewhere the first thing I do is hide the list so they can't come into my room and read it.

I am in my 40's now and due to unforseen things I live with my parents and kids. It is the worst thing to ever happen to me. As a child I had severe anxiety, severe social anxiety, and in my 20's had panic disorder. I take antidepressants only because I live with them.

I am constantly on edge, feel like I am walking on eggshells and am always waiting to get yelled at. I hate my life and feel as if I am just going through motions to get by. I have no one to count on and no support from anyone. Yes, my parents watch my kids for me but treat me like crap. I have been sent to my room in front of my kids because my kids were misbehaving and I tried to punish them by taking something away.

I have no money to move out even with a full time job. I am constantly trying to better myself but as soon as I look at my parents I Immediately want to curl up in my bed. I constantly have fans on in my bedroom to block the noise of them out. and yes I live in my bedroom. I only come out to do laundry ( I get yelled at for that) or to eat ( I hurry up and grab something quick to get away from them)

So I am almost 50 and am treated like crap by the 75 year old parents. They control everything. I am in prison and want to be released. they have ruined my life. My kids even hate me and hit me.