*hoped one*

Dear captgut,
Why do you keep saying I hate you? It's quite offensive.
I don't hate you. You're not the worst client.
I really care about you. Sometimes I think about you between sessions. Sometimes I read your blog and I like it.

I don't see hopeless terrible person (you words, right?). I see funny weird kind-hearted young woman with some mental disorders. I'm glad I met you. And I want to help.