You're not alone.

I SI'd from ages 10-16 when I just stopped. Then I was badly triggered in therapy when we were working on my abandonment feelings from when my Mom died when I was a little kid, and them my T immediately took a month long break, and I was stuck with all these old feelings. That was when I was 32.
I remembered getting relief from my emotions through si, and so I tried it again when I was 31 or 32, and was immediately relieved. I had a period of about 2 years when I was actively and regularly si'ing, and then I decided that this was a bit of a ridiculous thing to be doing at my age, and decided to stop. It was really hard, and I had lots of slips. In total it took me 10 years from starting to stop si'ing completely. I finally stopped for good in 2011 when I was 42.

If you can, I'd urge you to stop before it becomes a habit again, because it's really hard to stop once you're doing it regularly, and it's even harder to explain when you're an adult.

Good luck.

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