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Originally Posted by nottrustin
It is very complicated. I have had sessions that I felt like T wasn't herself and I walked away frustrated and upset. At the time I didn't know what was going on so I took it personally.
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That's exactly the problem. I am taking it personally because T has not let me know otherwise. Her short email responses were off and my husband also said it wasn't good enough and that she hadn't thought them through. And because I left the session in such a difficult and awkward way and was not able to let T in that day, I felt that her being cool with me in the emails was her reaction to that. And I am still allowed to think that because she has not told me otherwise. All she has said is (to my husband) she is not able to talk to him today because of the anniversary of her father's death. So unless she says that that affected her ability that day, I can't do anything else but feel it personally. I have major attachment issues and transference with T and am used to my mother rejecting me and punishing me with her silence and coldness etc. So this really hits me hard.