Sorry you're not feeling so well

I think you should reach out to your T anyway. She may be able to offer you words of advice, or at least offer words of comfort and encouragement. It can't hurt.

I'm sure your T will do everything she can to help. T's are very nice people in my experience, and they actually like it when someone reaches out to them for help. They want to help in any way they can.

I promise you're not going to annoy or bother her. There are some people here who send MULTIPLE emails/texts a day, and I have never heard of any T saying they're bothered by it.

Please send another email if you need the help. This is about you and your wellbeing.

All you have to do is say what you said here... the feelings of hopelessness, etc.... and ask her what you can do