do you have any perfessional help ... do you have a pdoc or a gp your seeing ... do they have any groups you could visit in your area ... any friends you could confide in ... it seems to me your all over the place ... we all need stability ... now that your home it might be a good time to pull back a little and take stock of what is really happening ... to reduce the "distractions" swirling around and try to center yourself ... I have a 26 year old son who if was struggling I would welcome home ... so don't worry about being a burden ... just take this time for you ... find the real you in there ... no reason to self loath or doubt yourself ... your not a failure as an adult ... you are you ... don't compare yourself with anyone else ... be yourself ... be comfortable in your skin ... when you find that center ... then you may find the rest will start getting easier ... just don't be so hard on yourself ... finding your path in this world is a process ... some spend there whole life finding it ... so take a deep breath ... love yourself ... forgive yourself ... be yourself ... Tigger.