As people who remember me know, I have sometimes mentioned that I feel I suffer from depression or pervasive depressive disorder. So the last 2 weeks have been extremely rough with these symptoms:
-Switching between too little and too much sleep
-Caused me to be late for school once, since I slept in
-Extremely sad/depressed
-Fatigued, even with sleeping more than I normally do (on days when I slept too much) or restless when didn't sleep enough
-Possible eating too much food
-Possible weight gain caused by above (haven't weighed myself)
-Worthlessness and guilt
-Crying spells
-Lack of motivation (more severe than normal)
-Haven't done any homework for a week
-Some loss of concentration (that's related to depression and not other things)

So I was talking to someone about this and they advised me to see my doctor about it, and I really care about this person's opinion, so I actually listened about going to see a doctor for depression for once. So I went to my doctor and she made me fill out a depression test. I never actually told her I think I have depression, I mentioned that I wanted to be put back on my medication that I went off of because I was dealing with more OCD symptoms (my perfectionism) and feeling sad, then she asked me more questions about depression. And the screener she gave me was one I did online already because I felt (and still feel) I am going into a major depressive episode. And I scored in the moderate range (as I did myself), but she didn't tell me anything about it. She wrote some notes on her computer and prescribed me my old medication, which is what I wanted. So I am unsure what she thinks. Maybe she thinks I am going through a depressive episode? I see my therapist tomorrow so maybe she knows something? I mean, this should have not been anything new, since my teacher on an assessment I did a year ago reported depression for me, but they didn't do anything about it.

Anyways, I do feel a bit better that I told someone about it, since I have always been scared about people judging me for being depressed. My guilt mind right now keeps telling me that it's my fault I'm depressed and that I should "snap out of it", even though I know I can't. I hate being depressed