THIS. So much this.

I cannot stand being around small children for any length of time because of the noise and the rambunctiousness and their lack of personal space/boundaries. I couldn't even stand being around small children back when I was a small child! I have zero maternal inclinations. It's a completely alien concept for me. The only children I can stand being around for more than a few minutes at a stretch are older children because they're more or less self sufficient--but only if they're also mature, respectful, well behaved, and quiet.

Needless to say I never wanted children of my own. I made the mistake of falling in love with and marrying a man who had three. Thought I could handle being a stepmom, but I was wrong. Living with kids was a miserable experience for me. After he passed away, I was very fortunate to meet a man (my second husband) who feels the same way I do. We love our childfree life. That's just who we are and we're grateful we can be our true selves with one another.

So Alice7777, I can assure you you're not alone in feeling this way. What's wonderful for one person can be hellish for another. And I certainly don't think there's anything wrong with it. Although society may try to tell you otherwise, at the end of the day you should be true to yourself and live your life in the way you know is right for you.