After my brother said this he immediately disowned me and told me he would not open any emails from me.

Sigh. This is a long standing practice in my family. I am older and have no patience for this ritual disowning of blood relatives. Just makes me feel ill and irritable.

If I have a character flaw it might be that I can be overly dramatic. If my brother wanted to be kind he might have said, "Look here, you may feel like your world is crashing down on you but you have my support and you will pull through this."

i do label my brother as a malignant narcissist and my mistake was breaking No Contact. Since he has disowned me he has done me the favor of establishing a new No Contact situation.

It's all very sad and since this post I have been enlightened by other members that I am probably the family scapegoat.

I love spirituality and don't see it as there having to be ghost in the machinery. I just see it as elevating myself to a higher meaning in life than negative family dynamics.