I saw my pdoc today. One of my meds were upped to help me manage the agitation and anxiety. All my other meds the pdoc said, "You're on everything that should be preventing mania," so I'm basically going to have to work on coping with the residual manic symptoms that sometimes leak through the meds, unless another full-blown manic episode occurs.
Same with the depressive symptoms--and I'm definitely more on the depressive side lately. I'm supposed to go back in two weeks after seeing how I do with the higher dose of Gabapentin for anxiety.

I also saw my T today. My T is helping me identify that some of the losses I've suffered over the past couple of years can still be causing a feeling of emptiness. She encouraged me to finally process the death of my friend, which was last year. It was hard to do, but at least now she understands in detail the course of events, how it affected me then, and how it's still affecting me. Once again, I asked her for some coping skills, and she says more is to be revealed now that I've talked out some issues. I hope this makes a difference and wonder how next session will go.