I started to fear the death of people I cared about when my Memaw first started to have major health problems over ten years ago. After she died everything changed. She was the uniting force in my family and after she passed no one really kept in touch.

Two of my best friends have past. One in a motorcycle accident and the other because of a bad heart. I think it is because I have been touched by loss as everyone does eventually and my gut reaction is to protect the people I have left. I have two brothers who are in poor health and one of my parents has been on the brink of it for a while now.

I understand your fear. I'm afraid too. I wake up in the middle of the night to check to make sure the people that I live with are still breathing. I have to know or else I panic.