Well, he'ld be inhuman if he didn't still care for you. I'm sure he always will to some extent. As far as what he thinks . . . . . well, he thinks he doesn't want to be with you. He's acting on that. But he's leaving you because he doesn't want to hurt you, like how he's always hurting people . . . and he needs to make a bigger commitment to taking care of his mom . . . this sounds like baloney to me. It's a bunch of stuff that kind of makes it heroic that he's walking out. A guy who walks out on a wife and two small children is not going to go too far out of his way for a mother. If he moves in with her, it will be for a free roof over his head.

Dragging mom into the picture is part of throwing up a smokescreen. You don't have to buy it. People walking away from responsibility always have phoney reasons why they are actually doing the right thing - in their own minds. But the rational that they spin may have little to do with what really motivates them. So when you say he thinks this, or he thinks that, be careful you're not just parroting off what you hear him saying. What he says may have little to do with what are his real thought processes. You seem to want to justify him.

And his past foul-ups were "mistakes." A "mistake" is when your checkbook doesn't balance. Maybe you put some bad karma out there. IDK. But beware of trying to create false equivalencies. He "doesn't even try to visit or see the children . . . " ?? That's a guy who doesn't want adult responsibility. Yeah, I believe he probably does only hurt people, and he's not looking to change that. But he's "committed" to "moving on?" This is a guy who knows zero about committing.

It is entirely possible to be very in love with a man who's really not worth it. (I've been there.) You don't need to see into his mind "what he's thinking." Focus on what he's doing. That's what counts in life.

Depression is affecting your whole household, including your parents. Are your parents part of your household? Are you saying that your parents are depressed, or that they are affected by your depression?

You do know how to handle this: You get up in the morning and take care of your kids. You are in a lot of pain, and you will be. But you handle it by doing what he is not doing - taking care of responsibilities. That really is what gets us through tough times. Let your parents help you, if they can. Try not to be alone with the kids too much. Kids can't grasp what you're going through. You need moral support from adults. Is anyone there for you?