I just want the pain to stop. I feel like I am being ripped apart and there is nothing I can do. I feel like I am losing the best thing in my life and I cannot figure out why. I am not a perfect person, but I love her perfectly. She is my everything. I am not planning on doing anything on Thanksgiving. I cannot face my family or be around her because the only emotion I can show is saddness. I feel like I cannot help her and that makes me sad. I feel like I am not a good father and that makes me sad. I feel like my family will look at me and think "Gosh two marriages down the toilet, what a failure." and that makes me sad.I almost want to become a hermit and just be by myself (something I have always been afraid of until now). I just don't know what to do anymore, I have tried and failed, I have tried again and failed again. It seems like every step I take I making the wrong step and the thin ice is about to break under my weight. I am at a loss.