Thank you so much for the update. He has always seemed like a very self aware and caring therapist. It's a rare thing, and you're fortunate to have him. Good for you for hanging in there, despite what felt like overwhelming evidence that it would not end well.

It might be worth keeping a note of your actual fears and thoughts prior to this, and then what happened. It's a good reminder for you in the future when you get triggered and fearful.

Half the battle for me is not making things better, it's seeing that they are not as dark as my triggered mind has made them out to be. Maybe there is something like that going on for you too.