Aw Sweetie, I'm sorry you are hurting. Life sucks sometimes. I worry sometimes that I'm not getting better too. Sometimes I feel like I'm never going to get better :-( I do think, though, that when times are rough I tend to forget the good times. And when times are good then I tend to forget the bad times. But when times are rough it feels like my life is always like this and there really isn't any hope.

I'm sure you have made some progress. It is just that maybe it is hard to see that progress from where you are standing right now. Hang in there. Things will get better. Gently does it.