So I have trouble staying motivated, focusing, doing my work, etc.

I also used to self harm (I'm about three months clean do I'm using "used to" in a fairly loose sense) and really don't want to start again.

However, lately to motivate myself I've been threatening myself that I'll self harm again unless I get something I've been procrastinating/unable to focus on finished.

This is obviously a really bad coping mechanism and all it does is freak me out and then I'll panic and do a sloppy rushed job on whatever I've been delaying before my "self harm deadline."

My parents can usually help me with getting work done on time but sometimes they're unavailable and that's when I resort to this strategy the most.

It's really taking a toll on my mental health and overall wellbeing and I'm hoping for some help/advice because I really cannot start self harming again and each time I feel like I'm getting closer to missing a deadline and hurting myself.