Until this evening I had not drank since New Years Eve.

Lately I've noticed a lot of anger within me. I find it uncomfortable. But I have been remaining positive and enjoying sobriety. This afternoon I found work stressful.

I came home and as I was parking my car I could hear my wife screaming inside the house. It turns out my 13 year old son has been getting into trouble again. He has autism and ADHD. He has messaged a girl at school on Instagram, threatening to rape her. We have left a message with the social worker and are going to speak to her tomorrow.

I have taken his tablet device and mobile phone off him and given them to my mother. I have been finding my mother harder and harder to get on with. But our son threatened us with a mallet and I am worried that if he knows the devices are around the house it will cause trouble.

I played games for a bit and went out for a drive. I rang a crisis helpline (the Samaritans). It is just not enough.

So I bought a bottle of cherry vodka. I thought it would be nice but unfortunately it is not.

I can try and get back on the wagon tomorrow. But what do I do if this happens again??? Its such a *****.