I am sorry, but this used to be the best time of the year for me. I decorated my tree yesterday, and it is beautiful, but I am still really down.
Who wants to celebrate Christmas any way. It has lost its meaning anyway. BUY BUY BUY!

I am not feeling that therapy or my meds are doing its job. I just feel pretty hopeless right now. I have been in therepy forever, and I feel like I am spinning my wheels. I still have suicidal thoughts all the time...and I mean all the time. Right now I can talk myself out of acting on them, but that gets really tiresome. I still cry at the slightest little thing, sometimes for no reason.
O am soooooooooooooooo FRUSTRATED!!!!!

I HATE DEPRESSION!!! I HATE DEPRESSION!!! I HATE DEPRESSION!!! I HATE DEPRESSION!!! <font color="purple"> </font>