Well I decided to not go home after work so I couldn't nap. Went to a bookstore nearby my support group, browsed books and grabbed something to eat. And then got stupid lost driving away from the book store. Of course my phone had 1% battery and then died so no google mapping it. I drove around getting lost and trying not to lose my ****.
At one point the road I was on just literally ended- so I turned around and eventually found a road I recognized. I ended up driving in a circle 20 minutes out of the way for a car ride that should have taken 7 minutes.

I'm Feeling sort of antsy. Agitated? More like amped up or fidgety. Idk. Im not anxious I don't think? It's more like restless energy or something. I need to be doing something with my hands. I'm not sure. But I have decided to stop obsessing over trying to label **** and just worry about coping with it. I found a Snapple cap in my purse and was clicking it the whole meeting. I think the lady next to me was getting annoyed but it was the only way I could calm down and focus on what people were saying. By the time I left I felt a bit better though. So that was good.

I'm really wiped out- I didn't get much sleep last nite, so I am going to bed now at 10 pm. An early nite for me. Sorry if I am over posting random crap- I have been feel like "aaahhhah" all over the place. But I refuse to concede that this is a depression showing up. I will not allow it to slip its sneaky claws into my brain and take hold. I plan to kick the living **** out of the black dog if it tries to reappear.
Anyhow, Have a good night. Sweet dreams eveybody.