Thank you.

It's difficult. We are looking for a therapist.

It's as I'd the urge to criticise her and keep her away (protect myself) is being held back by the desire to care for her, and to avoid conflict. So what happens is a total shut down - nonverbal communication lets her know I'm not present, verbally I'm withdrawn and quiet. Can't make eye contact. Inside it's like there's an eruption of anger, frustration, hopelessness.