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Originally Posted by junkDNA
Well, regardless, I meant that I wish you could realize that having sex with him will not make anything better. It's not going to be a magic.cure. whether or not he wants you, I think it's important to explore this within yourself or maybe even with your other, ethical therapist...because this type of pattern is one that will likely emerge in your life repeatedly
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It definitely HAS occurred repeatedly. I do a terrible job protecting myself from people who don't give a flying **** about me. I trust untrustworthy people over and over and over again. It's from my mom. She taught me to "be nice" over everything else--that there's nothing more important than being a nice person. She taught me "let everyone else go first. No one likes a pushy person." She taught me that standing up for myself was selfish and to just let people do whatever they wanted and don't fight back.
Now I'm afraid I shouldn't even trust T2 because wtf am I doing trusting another therapist again? I clearly have no good sense of when I'm in danger or how to protect myself. I've told T2 I need to talk about this tonight and that I'm now freaked out by him as well.