Ya. I mainly hate how socially awkward I am and how i can't make friends and no one really seems to want to hang with me (I have ASD).

I also hate being depressed and feel like it's my fault and that I should try harder to do things that i used to do like homework.

I also feel dumb and not smart because i can't get a 90s average (perfectionist) and feel it's because of all the things against me (ASD, LD, anxiety, now depression). So I'm afraid I won't get into my university programs because I'm a failure. Lots of things seem to have contributed to this self hatred.