Just saw my new pdoc for the second time. He seems like a great guy who is very skilled. He diagnosed me with BP1 with psychotic features and anxiety from a history of trauma. This seems reasonable to me. He increased my Lithium and wants me to take 20mg of Abilfy a day until my symptoms (agitation, hallucinations, irritability, racing thoughts etc) calm down. I can also take up to 2mg of Clonazepam a day till I calm down and must reduce the Ritalin to 30mg a day with the idea of coming off completely.

I didn't ask where I am at at the moment but it is likely I am mixed. He wants to see me in 12 days and call if I worsen. It is such a relief to be taken seriously and be treated for the right illness without having to endure being preached to about how i should return to Christianity. Hopefully the increase in meds will calm things down and I will avoid IP treatment. Today at university I was asked to stop talking twice as I interrupted people and talked when we were supposed to be silent. I am so impatient and find it hard to not speak when the urge overcomes me. It was embarrassing. I am so wound up, so not calm. At least I can find peace that I now have a great T and pdoc to help me with this horrible illness.