After attending several OCD treatment programs and seeing a number of psychiatrists, I still can't stop one of the OCD manifestations that wastes so much time in my life.
If I have been in an environment involving people who emotionally affect me in some way, from sitting near a group of aggressive people on the subway loudly joking about rape, or a group of religious fanatics expressing their absolutely hateful views towards the LGBT community, to people trying to impose their views on me, my antidote is to shower.
After showering, I feel "reset", back to a clean state.
I fully comprehend that hearing people say certain awful things doesn't harm me physically, but I have this ingrained idea that if I have said where they've sat, or overheard them, or been talked to by them, that I need to wash to feel clean and slightly calmer again.
So these days I take 3 or 4 showers every day, which robs me of so much time.
Anyone else like this?
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