I was in a ver similar boat for almost ten years before I ditched the old psydoc got back on lithium and was correctly diagnosed BP II. I actually just went and saw my psydoc yesterday and bumped up my lithium which honestly I'm ok with because I know I need it my moods still aren't completely where they should be imo. I felt the same way like it was a breath of fresh air to have someone who listens and gets it. I've been educating myself about it to fight the stigma!