I didn't do much of the sleep thing last night thinking about this.. I am not going to lie to my doc anymore. He is there to help me, and after knowing him for most of my adult and younger years I know him well enough that he shouldn't be too angry with me. I don't want to hurt him or make him feel like I don't trust him because I do.. I know all he wants is what is best for me, and to help me get back to as normal as I can be.
It was a bear getting out of bed this morning.. Just one more day though until I can speak to him. I won't lie, I'm nervous about this.. Likely much more than I really should be.
I think in time I will be able to discuss everything with who it needs to be discussed with.

I need to take better care of myself in the short term I think and pay attention to how I'm feeling and what I need. I've been doing far too little of that recently, purposefully or not.
I agree I've been keeping everything trapped inside and over the years it's been eating away at me and is finally starting to find a way out. I think I need to try and deal with that sooner rather than later or its going to really bite.