WOAH Fuzzy!!!!

You are much more than "just" good enough!!!
And you have absolutely NOTHING to apologise for AT ALL in my eyes
You have been amazingly caring, considerate, empathetic and supportive to LOTS of people on here..........to say the least!!!

And trust me.........not managing to have a relationship with her...........you are so much better away from her.........from the type of person she was..........the type of person who could treat another person.........you...........as she did!!!
The lack of relationship is her loss.........she didn't deserve you in her life IMO

Alison