I'm new on here. I needed a place for support. My husband of 7 years is a sex addict. I didn't know about his illness when we met. Yes, I did find out later on down the line and stayed with him. I know a lot of you will say that was stupid and I will completely agree with you. The even dumber part is I had a child with this man, I would not have changed that though. We have been together 7 years, married almost 4 years.
He has cheated on me multiple times, he has an addiction to porn, lying, and talking to other women. He goes online a lot and watches porn, live cam shows, talks to other women. One woman that he used to be friends with he messaged again (we almost broke up because of this woman) and he wanted to go meet up with her, just the two of them. This woman is also married, but she's also cheated on her husband and tried to get with mine years ago.
My husband has finally realized he has a problem (probably because I gave him divorce papers). He has joined SAA (sex addicts anonymous). He does the readings, he's looking for a sponsor, he has deactivated all of his social network accounts. I have full access to his tablet, computer, and phone. He's even suggested we start going to church to get closer to God so he can fix his relationship with God and his family.
My thing is, I don't trust him and am pretty sure I never will. I want to trust him. I want to have a family for the sake of my daughter. I want to have a relationship for the sake of my marriage. My thing is he has support from SAA but here I am completely lost and alone. I have no one to talk to, no support system and I feel like I'm going to burst if I don't talk to someone.
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