Exactly me. I force positive comments for other people, especially when my bipolar comes up. Inside, I think it's BS. I hate this bipolar and there's no hope. That's how I really feel when I'm not doing well, even though I tell other people, "Oh, it's bad right now but it'll change again soon."

I'm really good at flipping negative ideas and thoughts because of all the freaking CBT I've had in the last 10 years, but I usually do it for others' benefits. Occasionally I do try to give myself hope with the corrected negative statements, but it doesn't change how I actually feel. I'm just telling myself the words.