I am not sure, I just feel sad. But I know that I sometimes feel sad when I can't have something, or when certain expectations aren't met.

Sometimes I feel positive that she likes me, but then I see her one time, I see her behavior. And I instantly "conclude" that she is not interested, so I get sad. Even though this "conclusion" is extremely irrational.

Which I guess leads me to feel hate towards her, because I feel rejected.

It's all stupid...