Thank you all so much!! I feel so much better about everything. It is getting easier!
I feel bad, but I'm not going to let the guilt eat me up.. he caused all of this..not me. Iv discussed things with him family, iv gotten a parenting order from the courts and I meet with an abuse counsellor tomorrow morning.
The confusion is disappearing slowly. Im quite excited to get mine and my childrens life on the go!!

I spoke to him yesterday briefly after he had calmed down, to talk about child support and our shared finances and such. I don't know what it is, but I just felt like every word that came out of his mouth was a lie. It's almost like he's crumbling.. he has lost control and it's so strange to see him in this state.