Thanks everyone. My last pdoc knew I had been mentally and spiritually abused by many people in authority in the church in the past. They had tried to cast demons out of me to 'heal' my mental illness and when I didn't recover immediately I was told I must have sinned again to let the demons back in. This went on for five years. I was very vulnerable and passive at the time, and very unwell. This severely traumatised me and filled me with confusion, guilt and shame. It has taken me years to recover and was not the reason I left Christianity. That is another story. Despite knowing this he went on to hurt me in similar ways. I am so, so thrilled to be free of him.