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Old Mar 09, 2017, 07:36 PM
Anonymous52222
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One of the biggest issues that I am having in my life and perhaps the source of most of my problems right now is the lack of a stable income. I've been trying to find work but I can't seem to do anything right no matter how hard I try.

What makes things worse is that I am a loser. A loser because:

I'm a 25 year old male with NO provable work experience. I've never had a regular job ever in my life aside from some contract work several years ago that I can't even prove that I did.
I have NO drivers license. I never even had the chance to take driver's ed back in high school because my narcissist mother wouldn't let me. She insisted on controlling my life and not letting me learn things on my own which is causing me trouble as an adult because I don't know how to do things like normal people. Simple things such as managing money, socializing, networking with people who could help me, and even cooking food or cleaning are a challenge for me still let alone getting a license and driving.
I am reliant on donating plasma and a short term housing grant for youths (ages 16-25) with mental illness to pay for my living expenses. My contract with the people providing me the grant will expire in October which will mean that I will end up being homeless if I can't find a way to pay my rent which plasma alone WONT do.
I have NO references. I have no family anymore and hardly any friends. I live in my small $500 per month studio Apt. that I have to rely on a grant to pay for because I cannot even afford to pay a measly $500 a month on my own. I never leave except to donate plasma or go to the store and I am reliant on the slow bus system in my area which takes me 30 mins to over an hour to go places that would normally take 10-20 minutes by car. I can't even afford furniture and only own a bed, desk, 3 chairs, and computer. I don't even have any pots and pans to cook with. I have nothing and nobody.
And finally, I have NO confidence. I truly believe that I have no worth to any employers because of my problems and lack of experience. I believe that when trying to find a job, if it was ever down to me or another person, that other person would always win because I have nothing to show or offer compared to everyone else. I want to prove myself but I can't when nobody will even give me a fair chance.

I want to work. I don't want to rely on disability or SSI or grants or anything else. All I want is to take care of myself and life a meaningful life, but I am struggling. I just want a part time job at an entry level position so I can start saving money while I am still having most of my expenses paid, but I can't even get a job at Walmart or McDonalds because I have no experience or references and even if I get an interview, I never get a call back. I mean, heck, I couldn't even get a job at Walmart working in the back packaging meat part time at night during the holidays when there were only 2 other people who applied for the same job and got the interview. How utterly pathetic and dehumanizing.

I'm trying to volunteer right now while I wait for my application with DRS to complete so I can at least build some experience and references, but doing so is even proving difficult for me because I am having trouble finding volunteer oppertunities where I live that don't require references and won't make me walk 2-3 miles AND ride the bus for an hour just to get to which is difficult. I mean, it's hard enough for me to find a regular job, why should I be treated the same way when I am offering to do FREE LABOR for people for ****s sake?

So I need a job. Any job. I would prefer part time to adapt to working on a regular schedule as part time would currently make me enough money even on minimum wage as I can also continue donating plasma making my measly $80 per week and maybe qualify for food stamps. I will shovel cow crap or work in a sewer or do any job that most people would avoid at this point just to get my foot in the door.

Any advice would be appreciated.

Thanks.

Last edited by notz; Mar 19, 2017 at 01:02 PM.
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