I am 23 years old, male, I was on track to pursue a degree in mathematics but that ended this semester when I had to drop my real analysis class. I am terrible at proofs, I couldn’t even do Induction on simple polynomials which is mostly algebra in my previous class. But I told myself that was okay because I can just take actuarial exams and forgo a degree. However today in my probability class, we were given a quiz over the material that we had touched on and the student next me answered all the questions before I could answer one question. I felt like a freaking idiot. Two of the kids in my class have a GPA of 3.9 or higher. Then I get on my online class for probability for the P exam and whenever a question is given we are told to pause the video and try ourselves, I can almost never get the answer without seeing the work. Then I went to a firing range to try and cool off some steam and zero my ar for the first time. The maximum distance was 25 yards a joke right? Out of 40 shots I hit the center once and that was only by aminim rifle over the center at least 7 inches above it…no matter how I adjusted my MOA I was alsways off and could not get the bullet to be within an inch of my center….This made me feel even more retarded. I just quit marijuana and alcohol a few days ago. I am on an unusual amount prescriptions: vyvanse, omeprazole, Strattera, alprozalm, oxycodone (refereeing, yes odd, but I hate the job and always cold), 3 benedryl and melatonin every night for sleep. Maybe the combination of prescriptions is a problem idk, I am not sure if I should drop out of school completely or what, I am not a good writer, I appearently suck at math, I couldn’t make it past organic chemistry II, so there is really nothing left for me and I have suicidal thoughts. I thought about ending myself but changed my mind.