I get very impatient too. I start Walking so fast that my sides hurt because I am breathing so shallow.
When People get in my way I want to push them aside but obviously I don't. I get very nervous and angry when someone doesn't get my Point or just takes too Long to understand (let to a thousand Arguments with my mom who is far from stupid but not always the fastest to process new Information, she would say: god, Theresa, stop talking so fast, you're not understandable (even though I think that I was pretty understandable and usually People don't say I am not)).
Everything goes too slow for me. I feel like I am Floating through the air with blast pipes on my feet. Everything annoys me. People seem stupid to me, the Things they are talking about seem useless. I can't stand to stay in one place for longer than ten minutes, if I don't drink meanwhile or work out or am by myself. Being by myself calms me because I can stop to Control the hypomanic Symptoms, i will just be dancing through the room, singing, talking to myself, repeating phrases and so on. Maybe that is why People stress me out so much, because I have to Control myself so much.
Well, sorry, I wrote a whole novel, makes it quite easy to see what side I am on right now...
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