I have some of the negative symptoms like lack of interest in socializing,i never was the most extroverted person but i had some interest in socializing when i was younger,now i have none.I also feel kind of emotionally numb and indifferent to everything and i think i have a flat affect,a mask like facial expression when speaking.I also have cognitive symptoms like memory problems and problems paying attention.These could be symptoms of depression,but i think i am slowly developing schizophrenia.I think i am in the prodromal phase now before the illness fully developes and i develop positive psychotic symptoms.

The reason i'm so sure i'm developing it is because the last time i seen my psychiatrist,he asked me to take a low dose of the antipsychotic drug seroquel immediately after i told him my symptoms.He said at such a low dose (25 mg) it wont act as an anti psychotic but will help me sleep and help with my anxiety.He assured me i do not have schizophrenia after i asked him but i do not believe him.I think he is secretly treating me for schizophrenia and disguising it as a treatment for insomnia and anxiety.I think he is not telling me i am developing it because he knows it would exacerbate my symptoms and make the illness come on much sooner.

I know seroquel does not act as an anti psychotic at low doses,it acts as an anti histamine,but i think he is planning to slowly increase the dose till i'm on a high enough dose to treat schizophrenia symptoms, while feeding me some bull crap like " this will work better for insomnia and anxiety at a higher dose " or something like that.

Whats making me even more worried is the fact my brother has schizophrenia.This makes it much more likely i will develop it also.I am completely worried out of my mind that some day sooner or later i am going to completely lose touch with reality and be hospitalised and force fed powerful neuroleptic anti psychotic drugs for the rest of my life.

Do you guys think i might be developing it ? I have been having these symptoms since my late teens or early twenties,i'm in my late twenties now so about ten years.Would it take that long for it to develop or would it have happened by now ? Maybe i am not really going crazy and this is just anxiety making me think i am but i don't know.