Thanks for the replies but I don't think I want to continue anymore. It's all my fault that were getting nowhere because I'm too scared to even start with getting over this one horrible fear I have that is with me 24/7. It's getting to the point where I feel genuinely hopeless and doubt that anything will help me so I have to just live with it.

Not sure if I should email T saying all this + say ill come in/or we can talk on the phone to end it truly because i don't want to just email and say I'm done with therapy, I want to email saying how I feel and why I want to end it then end it via in person or phone (whichever she prefers i don't even care). Wow, I was able to get over 4/5 things and now this one that literally controls my life has won. I feel like a COMPLETE failure right now.