I have an appointment this afternoon but I'm upset with my T so I don't really want to go. I'm not one to no show or cancel last minute so I'm going to go, I just don't really want to talk when I'm there. The thing is that she did (well, I guess didn't) do something very minor but I'm taking it way harder than I should...

I try not to email T throughout the week because I don't want to get comfortable with that or overstep boundaries but she told me it's completely okay to do so. On Monday I emailed her saying I wanted to talk about something specific this week that I probably wouldn't bring up unless I emailed ahead of time so she could bring it up. I also asked a question about our scheduled appointment time for next week. I never got a response from her and I'm sure it is just because she was busy or thought we could talk about both of those things during the session but it hurts not getting a response...

The email was so insignificant but I feel rejected and forgotten and like I don't matter enough for her to take 1 minute to respond to me with two sentences. I feel this way a lot when people ignore me and I'm really good at giving them plenty of time to respond (in this case, a few days) but I lose trust when it happens.

The fact that I'm so worked up about something so little like this makes me feel like something is really wrong with me and I'll never be able to have a comfortable relationship with someone. When this stuff happens, I feel like I don't matter. Who would want to be friends or marry someone who feels so rejected and hurt over something so small?...It makes me feel really hopeless.

I have attachment issues and I'm honestly not sure those issues can ever be fully resolved or worked through.