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Originally Posted by AnxiousGirl
No my T has absolutely no idea about all this and honestly like I don't want to email her then her to say "well talk about it in session" then when session comes theres barely anytime for anything anyways. So like honestly I might as well just stop for now (who knows maybe years from now I go to therapy again). I just feel like I'm waiting everyones time and T should focus on someone who is willing to put in work/knows they will get better, not someone who tried and couldnt and feels hopeless.
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Hmm. Could you send your T an email saying that there is something you want to talk to her about, but are terrified, but really it is important to you? That way she doesn't focus on something else? You are not wasting anyone's time, though I understand. I've been with my T for almost 2 years and i haven't done much progressing. I actually laid on her couch, curled up and stared vacantly into space last week for an hour while she tried to get me to talk. I did ask her if she wanted me to leave early since I was clearly wasting her time.
She said I can do whatever I want, but I wasn't wasting her time. I bet your T feels the same. I also feel hopeless, and like I don't actually try or want to change, and my T says that no matter what, she will still be there. It is nice to hear.