Hey. I sort of feel like i ended my last message too negatively. I didn't want to leave that as the last thing I said because it sort of comes off with me sounding like an axxhole. Ah well. I decided not to delete anything on this thread because even if it is ugly, it is honest and what is in my head.

Anyway, i think i am obsessing too much about **** lately. I need to chill out a little. I have felt blah but been keyed up at the same time. Fidgety, constantly doing **** with my hands. I need to shut off my brain for a little while. I think maybe i will let myself sleep in tomorrow after all. I just want to feel normal and not feel like i am somehow constantly apologizing to the world for being like this.

Have a kick *** weekend everybody.