My hormones are out of whack at the moment, which is making everything so much worse on top of BP. I have not been sleeping these past few days. 2 nights ago I was wide awake and felt super speedy. Not good when you have work the next day. People at work tell me to slow down when I speak and pick up that I'm on edge.

My emotions have completely taken over. My mind keeps going to the past or future.....I'm not present, my thoughts race, and they are getting louder.

I feel everything is out of my control. It angers me. I am staying in bed, but I write short stories and have the urge to stay up. That's falling apart too though. I kind of feel anxious even when I think of sleep actually. I am so glad after tomorrow that I will be off for a few days, because the way I am going, I fear I will completely crash and need to leave work on FMLA. I'm hoping this will pass on its own though. I see my pdoc next Monday. So...this is where I'm at currently.