Hey don't do this man , I also had issues when young , I was diagnosed at 6 with ADHD , depression, anxiety, dyslexia, even before my diagnosis I felt different had hard time making friends and keeping them, anyway I did not stay in treatment, so I took things to help fit in self medicated in 20s broken back I was already abusing chemicals but I found my DOC. (Drug of choice) hydrocodone 12 years of hell I overdosed 3-4 times a few trips to jail, rehabs , no friends, lost everything for a stupid addiction, but finally after 12 years I have been clean 7 years now take suboxone for opiate addiction, I am in treatment psychiatrist had me sign contract , which I take medication but cause of addiction he is being cautious anyway I take adderall 20mg three times day ,Zoloft 100 mg, once, klonipin 1mg now just at bedtime I'm coming down off suboxone from 12 mg too 10mg , but I found I was self medicated cause of mental health issues , hydrocodone I thought helped by making me feel better but it actually numbed me out, I'm 40 now and living my life right now getting help I need , doctor and therapy my doctor does drug test and frequently pill counts which I can't blame him , so hang in there man you can succeed