I never get defended by those who say they love me. I must think I am better than they think I am.
I did defend these same other people in the past. I am just that kind of person to do that. But these people are just not the kind of person to defend me.
I know it is faulty thinking for me to wish they would, because they never do, even after I tell them how much it means to me if they would.
So I sit here in a bad mood. Tears every day.
Their neglect tells me I don't matter. I deprive myself of pleasure now and cause myself pain. It looks like full-blown disorder.
I am in a rut of my own making, not helping myself out.
I don't hate myself. I like myself. Maybe I don't love myself.
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"And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!"
. About Me--T
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