I am at the end of my tether.....All I feel about this depression is guilt guilt guilt, I cant help it, I want to be better, I want to live anormal life....I'm miserable and lonely and feel I am a bad mother right now because of it. If I leave I am bad, If I stay I am bad. My husband says he understands, then when I tell him what I need and I'm not getting it he says he has supported me, felt invisible and gets really angry, shouting in front of the kids etc. I know it's hard for him, I told him I feel bad and he said he understands and not to feel guilty, then shoves it in my face when He's angry. The kind of support I need right now is reassurance, love, I love you's....everything I'm not getting. Yes he is doing a job he hates, I appreciate that I do....he had an interview today for a better job.

Am I being selfish? I dont know right or wrong anymore, I cant focus on anything, I' really struggling with life and I don't know what to do....

desperate, Jin